Iwas sifting through the lists of songs i have and trying to pick out good lyrics. this time i fell for 5! (five) And Fonkeh is how the english say funky :D Isnt that funny :D
5 whatchu waitin' 4! if you wanna 3 2 1!
Oh Five, we know you can count :D They always seem
to want to solidify that fact by putting it in every song :D
Do you wanna get freak-eh, when the 5 of us make 1...
Oh the 90s, how we love you too :D
I have no D&Ms right now, so ill just give you a nice happy blog, becuase i feel happy. Its the holidays and speech day was yesterday- It wasn't as painful as before and i wasactually interested in who was getting awards because all those faces look familiar. So i didint day dream as much as i wanted to. But thats ok :D
The Band and the Choir did their stuff, which they rocked at, it seems. Meegs, did you have a solo? Becyas ei looked at you when only one saxahpone was playing, and i was wondering if it was the sexyphone. Well, if it wasnt yiou, then im sure you would be totally pwned who ever was solo-ing :D
AFterwards, mum took me to lunch and to Dymocks where we bought this UBEr FAntasTIC book about technical drawing fantasy figures. SO COOL!!! and so now i have done a sort of proper character sheet of one of my favourite characters. next we will try perpectives and archetutre.
Speaking of which i have to say that Sky-land rules ont he ABC. The art is TRES cool, and last episode they traveled to old France. The Animation is so cool and their movement is so fluid and life like. And the scary bald lady reminds me of Asuka.
Everybody get up Singin' *1,2,3,4* 5 will make you get down now!
Ooh i love that song.
Heh yesterday was prolly the last time i was supervised at "work" where im baby sitting Natey-boy. He's a lil' Cutie i have to say. And we totally played chasies up and down the hall and he takes much pleasure in throwing himself onto the couch or the carpet. And i ttoally OWNed him in a race to his room. HuzzHAH! i Totally PWNED you you little two year old. I RULE!
but i was SOOo pooposed i had to have a nap. but i couldnt because there was still a whole half hour till bath time. so i had to keep being happy happy happy monkey.
but man, after bath time we get to watch the wiggles, and the episode about waking up Jeff.
Wake UP JEff! Everybodies Waiting. Wake up JEff! the show's about to start! or something.
I get so engrossed with the adventures of those four wiggly men that i don't notice when Nate runs off, andi don't realise that my job is to stop him bugging his mum, and watch the big red car instead.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Thursday, December 07, 2006
I come empty handed, ready to see, your life in me changing who ive been and who i need to be
STAR FIELD!!
Thats who im listening to right now, ands its 11:50 PM.
WHY?!
Because i was alone ALL of today, Innuendo (yikache/Bethos) went to a freinds house to sleep over, Renee (kache) is working somewhere far adn distant, and Mum and Dad went to Uncle Betty....Aunty Betty and ...UNCLE laurence's house for a dinner Part-ay. Those crazy Elders and their wives i don't knowWAHT they get up to sometimes.
But mum bought me back some maccas Nuggets and i ate them and it was 11:15 om, and so i thought it rather unwise to go to bed just then as i might vomit it all back up or something.. ._.
But you didnt really need to know that.
Yea, so ive got loud music in my MP3 and its keeping me awake...
EVERYTHING IS BEAUTIFUL- even when teh tears are fallin'
i don't need a miracle to believe
Even in the crashing Down,
i can hear redemption calling
AND EVERYTHING IS BEAUTIFUL TO MEEEEEE!!!!
Woohoo. Oh maccas nuggets i love you ;D They are my crew anway. Chicken nuggets. And i am El Capitan Tabby, Capitan of Chicken and steroid beards ;D Oh dear im on a high.
Anyway. I must say, that i really like being a n00b.
SAY WAH?!
yea i know. but iwas contemplating my first big post that was about Anti-n00bness. i came to the conclusion that being a noob is better than trying to be a hard core anti-noob when you're not.
And i totally believe this is true :D For my own well being and for other's pride.
Its humbling. very much so and i think it does greatness for my spirit, be it a step backward for my pride.
Right now, im trying to get a part time Job, sharing it with Davia (cousin) to baby sit Mr Ed's (Uncle from Church) 2 year old toddler Natey-boy for a few hours during the summer holidays.
I am a total BABY N00B if ever there was one. Everyone else in my family does crech or HAD A BABY. but not me. They scare me. I always avoided cech because i was afraid i was gong to explode one by just touching it. I wouldnt put it past me either.
But here i am, trying to learn the ballerina dance moves to one of the wiggles song, and yelling "Yipee!" every time you throw the teddy bear int he air during the scene wher eits raining outside, and the wiggles can't play, so they stay inside to play with their local teddies :D
I love the Wiggles. We will miss you Greg. We are: the generation fo Greg the yellow Wiggle. Forever in our big red hearts.
Anyway; i had to admit to myself that iw as a noob. I had to tell Davia that i was a noob, and it sort of helped me. That way, i had liscence to look stupid :D Because it was my first time, and everyone knew. It was so mcyh easier to make mistakes, to allow myself to venture further into new territory because i wasn't watching my feet, or my ego so much.
If i was trying to be anti-noob i would have felt to much more uncomfortable and horrible.
This was much better :D Happy!
it was so much more fulfilling, i felt, and now i know how to put on pajama tops on little boys.
HUZZAH!
I stilll have much to learn, and will be going to help with crech this sunday. Where there will be a whole swarm of explosive babies to contend with. D:) Crudular crud cakes
Well, there is a first time for everything i suppose.
Thats who im listening to right now, ands its 11:50 PM.
WHY?!
Because i was alone ALL of today, Innuendo (yikache/Bethos) went to a freinds house to sleep over, Renee (kache) is working somewhere far adn distant, and Mum and Dad went to Uncle Betty....Aunty Betty and ...UNCLE laurence's house for a dinner Part-ay. Those crazy Elders and their wives i don't knowWAHT they get up to sometimes.
But mum bought me back some maccas Nuggets and i ate them and it was 11:15 om, and so i thought it rather unwise to go to bed just then as i might vomit it all back up or something.. ._.
But you didnt really need to know that.
Yea, so ive got loud music in my MP3 and its keeping me awake...
EVERYTHING IS BEAUTIFUL- even when teh tears are fallin'
i don't need a miracle to believe
Even in the crashing Down,
i can hear redemption calling
AND EVERYTHING IS BEAUTIFUL TO MEEEEEE!!!!
Woohoo. Oh maccas nuggets i love you ;D They are my crew anway. Chicken nuggets. And i am El Capitan Tabby, Capitan of Chicken and steroid beards ;D Oh dear im on a high.
Anyway. I must say, that i really like being a n00b.
SAY WAH?!
yea i know. but iwas contemplating my first big post that was about Anti-n00bness. i came to the conclusion that being a noob is better than trying to be a hard core anti-noob when you're not.
And i totally believe this is true :D For my own well being and for other's pride.
Its humbling. very much so and i think it does greatness for my spirit, be it a step backward for my pride.
Right now, im trying to get a part time Job, sharing it with Davia (cousin) to baby sit Mr Ed's (Uncle from Church) 2 year old toddler Natey-boy for a few hours during the summer holidays.
I am a total BABY N00B if ever there was one. Everyone else in my family does crech or HAD A BABY. but not me. They scare me. I always avoided cech because i was afraid i was gong to explode one by just touching it. I wouldnt put it past me either.
But here i am, trying to learn the ballerina dance moves to one of the wiggles song, and yelling "Yipee!" every time you throw the teddy bear int he air during the scene wher eits raining outside, and the wiggles can't play, so they stay inside to play with their local teddies :D
I love the Wiggles. We will miss you Greg. We are: the generation fo Greg the yellow Wiggle. Forever in our big red hearts.
Anyway; i had to admit to myself that iw as a noob. I had to tell Davia that i was a noob, and it sort of helped me. That way, i had liscence to look stupid :D Because it was my first time, and everyone knew. It was so mcyh easier to make mistakes, to allow myself to venture further into new territory because i wasn't watching my feet, or my ego so much.
If i was trying to be anti-noob i would have felt to much more uncomfortable and horrible.
This was much better :D Happy!
it was so much more fulfilling, i felt, and now i know how to put on pajama tops on little boys.
HUZZAH!
I stilll have much to learn, and will be going to help with crech this sunday. Where there will be a whole swarm of explosive babies to contend with. D:) Crudular crud cakes
Well, there is a first time for everything i suppose.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Hold me now, im six feet from the edge and im thinking, maybe six feet ain't so far down...
OH :( isnt' that so sad? Its a really nice song but man its depressing.
let me just take this line to say: I AM EMO FREE
Its Creed- if you wouldl ike to know.
It is christmas.
yesterday me and mum went to para to get my hair done for the formal, and its christmas shopping season, gaudy decorations everywhere and stupid jazzed up versions of christmas carols playing the backgroundw hile the chinese lady pharmasist in a red christmas t-shirt chargeses us $115 worhth of prescription drugs for my family and then there are stupid singing christmas simpson figurines for sale and red and green and tinsel everywhere and santa santa santa.
Do i sound angry and angsty? Haha im not really. it jus made me think about my 16th christmas.
Does the lady ion the CD singing the verses of Hark the Herald think about the words she sings while adding funky timing and trilly notes? "Glory to the new born king- God and sinners reconciled- Christ is born"
On the bus home- Jemima and friends were singing songs, and started off with christmas carols. Did they flinch when they said "Christ" "God" or "sin" and stuff? because i know a lot of them were...well, anti christian.
I dont really nkow where im going with this. Christmas sint bad, neither is singing christmas carols everywhere. Nore is buying presents, nor is buying drugs.
Everywhting is just so shallow. Its never really occured to me before, but those words really jumoed out at me when people said them: Christ, God, Sin.
Am i just getting really touchy for now reason? I never really held christmas in such high reguard anyway. Everyone makes such a big deal out of it, and right now christmas only means trying not to panic over lots of money spending because we don't have as much as we used to.
Christmas is never as important as Easter anyway.
Maybe ive just been wondering how people not so much Slander God's name in any context, but just how they say it without thinking about it or what the words mean- just a part of culture and tradition and superstition. Shouldn't it mean something so much more?
Yea- christmas has been giong on since forever. The decorations aren't even christian anyway so we can do without the gaudiness. So much of it has strayed from the true intentions that people wrote christmas carols.
am i angry at something? not really. Not at the world or people. just pondering.
I also ponder about jokes. so many of us are afraid of saying a joke or a comment that revolves around christianity because it might offend someone or they might be struck down. by me.
To be honest i DO turn into scary christian mode when someone at school mentions God or jesus or something. Its becuase i feel uncomfortable. To be honest, i do- its hard to laugh at a joke which would be trully funny and witty when you're uncomfortable.
My family cracks christian jokes all the time at home and i feel comfortable there because everyone knows your joking, they know how to react and blah blah blah.
Heh- it reminds me of when my dad told us when he was in a lecture in his theology college becayse he's studying to become a minister. before every lecture they pray, so all teh students closed their eyes, waiting for the lecturer to begin... and he begins:
"G'day Mate!"
And all the theological students are like ._. and half open their eyes and mumble to each other like: "Man...he's pretty familiar with God if he greets him like that at the beginning of every prayer..."
But it was only becasue while they had thies eyes closed a latecomer had come in and the lecturer was talking to him.
Well, i thought it was funny.
that wasnt really a joke.
There are better ones out there. I promise you.
But why am i uncomfortable? It has everything to do with i suppose peoples expectations of Christians and i just feel so much attention or pressure onme to do the right thing. Moments like these when christianity topics come up are crucial for whitnessing and evagelising we are told, and i guess we just freeze, trying to make the most of it, and end up thowing the oppertunity out teh window because of this attitude that just glazes over our eyes. its a poo.
Please, don't be afraid to be free and say something when you think it. i pun or a joke or SOMETHING- even if its just saying that Lord ofthe Rings reads like a bible. I don't get offended. Its so important that we are totally honest about how we think nd feel about something, and not hold it in for the reason that you don't want to offend someone or make them turn scary and serious on you.
Wait, not offending someone is good- but not in situations like this. I WONT get OFFENDED. I never Do- i think thinking that i will would just make my situation worse, because i can see when people think that im giong to turn into scary mode...and then it sort of ends up turning onthe scary mode because i feel uncomfortable because you no longer feel comfortable with me because what imight say or that i might be offended because of expectations of christians and things. D8< <- hehehehhe
Its a vicious cycle. Its better to express a conflicting point of view if you have one than just letit fester becyase of Tabby's scary serious face...i donth ave an emote for that just yet. (8
let me just take this line to say: I AM EMO FREE
Its Creed- if you wouldl ike to know.
It is christmas.
yesterday me and mum went to para to get my hair done for the formal, and its christmas shopping season, gaudy decorations everywhere and stupid jazzed up versions of christmas carols playing the backgroundw hile the chinese lady pharmasist in a red christmas t-shirt chargeses us $115 worhth of prescription drugs for my family and then there are stupid singing christmas simpson figurines for sale and red and green and tinsel everywhere and santa santa santa.
Do i sound angry and angsty? Haha im not really. it jus made me think about my 16th christmas.
Does the lady ion the CD singing the verses of Hark the Herald think about the words she sings while adding funky timing and trilly notes? "Glory to the new born king- God and sinners reconciled- Christ is born"
On the bus home- Jemima and friends were singing songs, and started off with christmas carols. Did they flinch when they said "Christ" "God" or "sin" and stuff? because i know a lot of them were...well, anti christian.
I dont really nkow where im going with this. Christmas sint bad, neither is singing christmas carols everywhere. Nore is buying presents, nor is buying drugs.
Everywhting is just so shallow. Its never really occured to me before, but those words really jumoed out at me when people said them: Christ, God, Sin.
Am i just getting really touchy for now reason? I never really held christmas in such high reguard anyway. Everyone makes such a big deal out of it, and right now christmas only means trying not to panic over lots of money spending because we don't have as much as we used to.
Christmas is never as important as Easter anyway.
Maybe ive just been wondering how people not so much Slander God's name in any context, but just how they say it without thinking about it or what the words mean- just a part of culture and tradition and superstition. Shouldn't it mean something so much more?
Yea- christmas has been giong on since forever. The decorations aren't even christian anyway so we can do without the gaudiness. So much of it has strayed from the true intentions that people wrote christmas carols.
am i angry at something? not really. Not at the world or people. just pondering.
I also ponder about jokes. so many of us are afraid of saying a joke or a comment that revolves around christianity because it might offend someone or they might be struck down. by me.
To be honest i DO turn into scary christian mode when someone at school mentions God or jesus or something. Its becuase i feel uncomfortable. To be honest, i do- its hard to laugh at a joke which would be trully funny and witty when you're uncomfortable.
My family cracks christian jokes all the time at home and i feel comfortable there because everyone knows your joking, they know how to react and blah blah blah.
Heh- it reminds me of when my dad told us when he was in a lecture in his theology college becayse he's studying to become a minister. before every lecture they pray, so all teh students closed their eyes, waiting for the lecturer to begin... and he begins:
"G'day Mate!"
And all the theological students are like ._. and half open their eyes and mumble to each other like: "Man...he's pretty familiar with God if he greets him like that at the beginning of every prayer..."
But it was only becasue while they had thies eyes closed a latecomer had come in and the lecturer was talking to him.
Well, i thought it was funny.
that wasnt really a joke.
There are better ones out there. I promise you.
But why am i uncomfortable? It has everything to do with i suppose peoples expectations of Christians and i just feel so much attention or pressure onme to do the right thing. Moments like these when christianity topics come up are crucial for whitnessing and evagelising we are told, and i guess we just freeze, trying to make the most of it, and end up thowing the oppertunity out teh window because of this attitude that just glazes over our eyes. its a poo.
Please, don't be afraid to be free and say something when you think it. i pun or a joke or SOMETHING- even if its just saying that Lord ofthe Rings reads like a bible. I don't get offended. Its so important that we are totally honest about how we think nd feel about something, and not hold it in for the reason that you don't want to offend someone or make them turn scary and serious on you.
Wait, not offending someone is good- but not in situations like this. I WONT get OFFENDED. I never Do- i think thinking that i will would just make my situation worse, because i can see when people think that im giong to turn into scary mode...and then it sort of ends up turning onthe scary mode because i feel uncomfortable because you no longer feel comfortable with me because what imight say or that i might be offended because of expectations of christians and things. D8< <- hehehehhe
Its a vicious cycle. Its better to express a conflicting point of view if you have one than just letit fester becyase of Tabby's scary serious face...i donth ave an emote for that just yet. (8
Saturday, December 02, 2006
I've got somebody else's thoughts in my head and i want some of my OWN
Oooh LIfehouse . A little ansty sounding but its a good some eh ;D
Im surprised i can keep these long blogs up. It takes so much energy and so much of my saturday to write them.
I liked Life and Resilience this week. It was a bit like peer support again, except more D&M- deep and meaningful.
One of the things we talked about was acceptance nad predjudice in our society. and then came that word that makes every Christian and Catholic freeze- because they know they're up against a world of misconception and reality and other things of poo: homosexuality.
TABBY AND THE WORLD OF HOMOSEXUALITY
Oh my goodness.
Its a scary topic. WHY? becauase when people talk about it, and then know you are a christian, its time to switch into scary mode for both parties. ._.
THE WORLD: The world has had a dark history concerning Homosexualtiy, and still struggles with acceptance today, but it is much more open than it was in the 1950s when people would bash you up for being Gay. this is a Good thing. It is a very Good thing because we hate violence nad predjudice and Gay-bashing is a sub-human act of pure ignorance and hate. Today, the world embraces those of different sexualities. Horray for Free love! Everywhere! Everyone! FREEEE!!! Though understandably, people still get really awekward when it comes to talkinga botu homosexuality even ifyour not christian or catholic, but it is a politically correct thing to ebrace all people. This is GOOD <- Happy face for humanity and its progress through history. But this does not fare well for the children of God.
THE CHILDREN OF GOD: Our Lord has been so incredibly explicit about this topic that there is absolutly not question about what God thinks of homosexuality. Romans has a big hefty chunk in chpater 1 that says that Homosexuality is a perversion- a degradation of human bodies, and the result of a depraved mind. This depraved mind was given to humans because they didnt want to fear God- they totally went haywire to the way God had wired them, and rejeced him. So God "gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodoes with one another. They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator- who is forever praised.
Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for the unnatural ones. in the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with list for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and recieved in them selves the due penalty for their perversion." 1:24-27
Thats uber freaky man. Especailly how you keep reading what Paul says and he sounds so angry and GRAR at humanity and what they have done to God.
You really can't get more explicit in that, not that its not scary and very polittically incorrect. But that doesnt mean its not right- scarily so. All of us Christians often dodge and tip toe around teh subject, becuase today, you dont get bashed if your homosexual, but if you say something bad about it. Thats Good- again, horray for the progress of humaity and its acceptance. But that still doesnt make it good in God's eyes.
This is black and white. God against the World, the World against God- we are confused because we cant help being citizens of both. we have both points of view. We're torn between the progress of humanity and its kindness, to the root of the problem itself. Is kindness enough to mask the sin from God to make its acceptable?
Ok thats jsut a weird question. here is our situation.
THE CHILD OF GOD'S SITUATION: Homosexualtiy is very much part of our society and we have very strong views about it: Homosexuality is love- love shuld be free, we are all for homosexuality because there is nothing wrong with it- it is just love between too people and can be and pure or dirty as every other relationship between a man and a woman.
If i wasn't a christian, this would be totally cool- there is nothing wrong with loving another human just like a man loves a woman- nothing wrong in the way homosexual show their love- its exactly the same, it just wasnt a social norm in the world's early years, even though homosexuality was everywhere in the world's ancient cities. NOTHING WRONG- ALL FREE, just the ignorance and close minded ness of the forefathers of human history. but we can change that- MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE FOR YOU AND ME! YAY!
But i am a christian. So it is wrong, and has been ever since it has been pracitces. the wrong-ness doesnt come from close mindedness of history people, but from the sin that is as fresh as ever sin that is commited in every one's everyday life. it is SIN- and SIN is the worst, base, curruptedness in the eyes of God. ALL sin is, and Homosexuality is one of them. Therefore, homosexuality cannot be made better with acceptance.
THE CHRISTIAN CONT: Don't get me wrong. The other side of the scale is to believe that homosexuality is the Worst of all sins. I don't know about Catholic, because i am uneducated, but us Prespos dont have a hierachy of sin. All sin is the same. All sin is just as detremental as eachother. A lie is as good as a murder. A murderous though is just as good as the act of murdering. One sin is enough for death. There is no such thing as a SMALL sin. No such thing as a BIG sin- no such thing as a MORE DAMNING sin because ALL sin is Damning.
SIN: Sin is the total opposite to God. God is the epitome of EVERYTHING good- because all Good things, and only good things came from God. "I said to the Lord, withiout you, i have no good thing." <- my one and only memorised verse.
God is also Just. God is the Epitome of just- because justice is Good. It is fair.
God also Hates sin. you can see why, because sin is so contary to God's nature. Sin is the epitome of all things Bad- it is rejection of God. Why is this bad, becuase in the world and all of creation, God is othe only thing that ever matters. Rejection of Him is rejection of Justice and all things Good= all things bad.
God cannot abide with anything Bad; "You are not a God who takes pleasure in evil; with you the wicked cannot dwell...you hate all who do wrong. You destroy those who tell lies; bloodthirsty and decietful men the Lord abhors." Pslam 5:4-6 Ever heard of God hating something? He only hates Sin. Sin is hereditory in ALl humans. it destroys God's creation.
Thats why God can't just overlook the world of sin- that would be UNJUST. Evil MUST be punished and banished. But he still LOVES humans, becuase God is all things Good. he didnt want to banish everyones, but he had to do something- otherwise he wuld not be the God of justice.
So he sent Jesus- and focussed all the punishment and wrath of sin of the entire universe, past presenta nd future onto this ONE MAN. so only one person would have to take the just punishment of sin.
But this is a tangent.
THE POINT OF ALL OF THAT: We consider the act of homosexuality a sin. All people sin everyday, so being homosexual doesnt mean that that person is any less of a person, is any less loved by God than a hetrosexual. Every human is the same, and no one has the right to condemn a homosexual for their way of life.
WHY WOULD LOVING ANOTHER PERSON BE A SIN?: I don't know- to be totally honest, i have no idea. But that doesn't stop it being black or white.
Therefore i cannot and will not condemn Homosexuality, it is not my place, but i also cannot/will not condone it to be politically correct.
Im surprised i can keep these long blogs up. It takes so much energy and so much of my saturday to write them.
I liked Life and Resilience this week. It was a bit like peer support again, except more D&M- deep and meaningful.
One of the things we talked about was acceptance nad predjudice in our society. and then came that word that makes every Christian and Catholic freeze- because they know they're up against a world of misconception and reality and other things of poo: homosexuality.
TABBY AND THE WORLD OF HOMOSEXUALITY
Oh my goodness.
Its a scary topic. WHY? becauase when people talk about it, and then know you are a christian, its time to switch into scary mode for both parties. ._.
THE WORLD: The world has had a dark history concerning Homosexualtiy, and still struggles with acceptance today, but it is much more open than it was in the 1950s when people would bash you up for being Gay. this is a Good thing. It is a very Good thing because we hate violence nad predjudice and Gay-bashing is a sub-human act of pure ignorance and hate. Today, the world embraces those of different sexualities. Horray for Free love! Everywhere! Everyone! FREEEE!!! Though understandably, people still get really awekward when it comes to talkinga botu homosexuality even ifyour not christian or catholic, but it is a politically correct thing to ebrace all people. This is GOOD <- Happy face for humanity and its progress through history. But this does not fare well for the children of God.
THE CHILDREN OF GOD: Our Lord has been so incredibly explicit about this topic that there is absolutly not question about what God thinks of homosexuality. Romans has a big hefty chunk in chpater 1 that says that Homosexuality is a perversion- a degradation of human bodies, and the result of a depraved mind. This depraved mind was given to humans because they didnt want to fear God- they totally went haywire to the way God had wired them, and rejeced him. So God "gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodoes with one another. They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator- who is forever praised.
Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for the unnatural ones. in the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with list for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and recieved in them selves the due penalty for their perversion." 1:24-27
Thats uber freaky man. Especailly how you keep reading what Paul says and he sounds so angry and GRAR at humanity and what they have done to God.
You really can't get more explicit in that, not that its not scary and very polittically incorrect. But that doesnt mean its not right- scarily so. All of us Christians often dodge and tip toe around teh subject, becuase today, you dont get bashed if your homosexual, but if you say something bad about it. Thats Good- again, horray for the progress of humaity and its acceptance. But that still doesnt make it good in God's eyes.
This is black and white. God against the World, the World against God- we are confused because we cant help being citizens of both. we have both points of view. We're torn between the progress of humanity and its kindness, to the root of the problem itself. Is kindness enough to mask the sin from God to make its acceptable?
Ok thats jsut a weird question. here is our situation.
THE CHILD OF GOD'S SITUATION: Homosexualtiy is very much part of our society and we have very strong views about it: Homosexuality is love- love shuld be free, we are all for homosexuality because there is nothing wrong with it- it is just love between too people and can be and pure or dirty as every other relationship between a man and a woman.
If i wasn't a christian, this would be totally cool- there is nothing wrong with loving another human just like a man loves a woman- nothing wrong in the way homosexual show their love- its exactly the same, it just wasnt a social norm in the world's early years, even though homosexuality was everywhere in the world's ancient cities. NOTHING WRONG- ALL FREE, just the ignorance and close minded ness of the forefathers of human history. but we can change that- MAKE THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE FOR YOU AND ME! YAY!
But i am a christian. So it is wrong, and has been ever since it has been pracitces. the wrong-ness doesnt come from close mindedness of history people, but from the sin that is as fresh as ever sin that is commited in every one's everyday life. it is SIN- and SIN is the worst, base, curruptedness in the eyes of God. ALL sin is, and Homosexuality is one of them. Therefore, homosexuality cannot be made better with acceptance.
THE CHRISTIAN CONT: Don't get me wrong. The other side of the scale is to believe that homosexuality is the Worst of all sins. I don't know about Catholic, because i am uneducated, but us Prespos dont have a hierachy of sin. All sin is the same. All sin is just as detremental as eachother. A lie is as good as a murder. A murderous though is just as good as the act of murdering. One sin is enough for death. There is no such thing as a SMALL sin. No such thing as a BIG sin- no such thing as a MORE DAMNING sin because ALL sin is Damning.
SIN: Sin is the total opposite to God. God is the epitome of EVERYTHING good- because all Good things, and only good things came from God. "I said to the Lord, withiout you, i have no good thing." <- my one and only memorised verse.
God is also Just. God is the Epitome of just- because justice is Good. It is fair.
God also Hates sin. you can see why, because sin is so contary to God's nature. Sin is the epitome of all things Bad- it is rejection of God. Why is this bad, becuase in the world and all of creation, God is othe only thing that ever matters. Rejection of Him is rejection of Justice and all things Good= all things bad.
God cannot abide with anything Bad; "You are not a God who takes pleasure in evil; with you the wicked cannot dwell...you hate all who do wrong. You destroy those who tell lies; bloodthirsty and decietful men the Lord abhors." Pslam 5:4-6 Ever heard of God hating something? He only hates Sin. Sin is hereditory in ALl humans. it destroys God's creation.
Thats why God can't just overlook the world of sin- that would be UNJUST. Evil MUST be punished and banished. But he still LOVES humans, becuase God is all things Good. he didnt want to banish everyones, but he had to do something- otherwise he wuld not be the God of justice.
So he sent Jesus- and focussed all the punishment and wrath of sin of the entire universe, past presenta nd future onto this ONE MAN. so only one person would have to take the just punishment of sin.
But this is a tangent.
THE POINT OF ALL OF THAT: We consider the act of homosexuality a sin. All people sin everyday, so being homosexual doesnt mean that that person is any less of a person, is any less loved by God than a hetrosexual. Every human is the same, and no one has the right to condemn a homosexual for their way of life.
WHY WOULD LOVING ANOTHER PERSON BE A SIN?: I don't know- to be totally honest, i have no idea. But that doesn't stop it being black or white.
Therefore i cannot and will not condemn Homosexuality, it is not my place, but i also cannot/will not condone it to be politically correct.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Follow me and you will see all the black and the white fade to grey..
i absolutly LOVE Jars of Clay
http://www.celebrityvalues.com/images/jars_of_clay_300.jpg
Hmm- thankeefor you comments- especially your's meegs set me straight. There seemed to be something of a hypocritical edge in my last Blog- and for that i apologies to me and you. there are always times when i have auch apathetic ness, and i guess ive never takien into account other people's positions in life.
But my main qualm lay with the total apathy to at least try and seek God and what you believe - laziness...and stuff. ._. agh i lost my juice
Anyway- i just read some of the things on that pokemon vs christian children link on SHrub's blog. what an age old debate. Actually, not that age old because it is a rather recent one involving Dan Brown and teh di vinci code.
When i was reading it i frowned - conflicting and rather bemused. Espeially because i loce role-playing games :D Pokemon and the Occult? never thought about that one.
yesterday in YF (youth fellowship) we were talkinga bout suffering, that Christians suffer because of their attitude, which is the attitude of Christ, and also have an attitude of Christ to Suffering.
I think it meant that as Christians, we have Christ's attitude to the world and to things- we know that for a lot of things int he world it is Bad, and therfore you find most Christians abstaining from things that the World takes pleasure in. I don't need to name any...XB
many christians, many churches encourage the abstinance from many of the popular things of the world, therefore. And recently we have heard upcries from churches about Harry Potter, Di Vinci Code and now Pokemon because of occultish undertones and bases and stuff.
Personally as a Lover of all things fantasy i can see that it seems stupid. YOu can discern fun from reality, and role playing with cards and pictures and wanting to beat someone in a game using your imagination surely isnt bad. Perhaps playing at an impressionable age when you aren't so solid about what you know about your faith and you let fantasy become reality and start applying the physics and forces that make Pokemon into you're own life- this can be harmful.
But when you know what you know, but love fantasy and you know the physics of fantasy but nkow it is a game- Knowing Dan Brown's book is in the fiction section of the library for a reason, and are aware of your doctrine and jsut want to enjoy the adventure and literary prowess of J.K Rowling- are you still be influenced, is it still dangerous? Does it lead to sin?
Another example of this could be Biology and evolution, which is also mentioned in said site. Evolution from a single celled organism is a widely accepted theory and people always use it as ammo against christianity. A lot of Christians shy away from mention of the theory becuase- like most things that poke fun at us- stuff that is used like ammo always makes us angry and makes us write angry angry blogs like this. We can't help it- we're passionate i suppose you could say.
But shying away from opposision and denying it doesnt really get us anyway, or the opposision anywhere. Avoiding things because they are bad- thats good. But sometimes we still need to be open minded- not fully accepting of the world and all its political correctness (accepting the world wholy is Baaad- because the world is wholy against God) but to understand their point of view, to learn about it, to question what you believe by challenging it, and not jsut accepting it, asking questions, knowing what you believe and why you do so you can defend yourself against the opposition with a legitmate answer that will make them ask their own questions.
So im rather looking forward to taking bio next year.
But there is also the fact that what this site has to say about abstaining from these sorts of things is that it is based in the best interest of Christian living. It has a point, even though maybe in reality it seems far-fetched. could it be that i am objecting to this "close-minded" view because i am so attatched to my fantasy? In all honesty i cannot think about my life without Fantasy because takes up so much of my imaginaton and art book.
Am ionly thinking it as "close-minded" because i deny the possible subtle influence of fantasy? thats an intersting thought.
No- think that if you are secure in waht you know- you are safe. There are points in fantasy where you should not cross, where the influence is too strong. I shuld always constantly review what i am sdoing, checking to make sure that it is not a foothold for the devil. But i don't think fantasy itself, is teh devil.
http://www.celebrityvalues.com/images/jars_of_clay_300.jpg
Hmm- thankeefor you comments- especially your's meegs set me straight. There seemed to be something of a hypocritical edge in my last Blog- and for that i apologies to me and you. there are always times when i have auch apathetic ness, and i guess ive never takien into account other people's positions in life.
But my main qualm lay with the total apathy to at least try and seek God and what you believe - laziness...and stuff. ._. agh i lost my juice
Anyway- i just read some of the things on that pokemon vs christian children link on SHrub's blog. what an age old debate. Actually, not that age old because it is a rather recent one involving Dan Brown and teh di vinci code.
When i was reading it i frowned - conflicting and rather bemused. Espeially because i loce role-playing games :D Pokemon and the Occult? never thought about that one.
yesterday in YF (youth fellowship) we were talkinga bout suffering, that Christians suffer because of their attitude, which is the attitude of Christ, and also have an attitude of Christ to Suffering.
I think it meant that as Christians, we have Christ's attitude to the world and to things- we know that for a lot of things int he world it is Bad, and therfore you find most Christians abstaining from things that the World takes pleasure in. I don't need to name any...XB
many christians, many churches encourage the abstinance from many of the popular things of the world, therefore. And recently we have heard upcries from churches about Harry Potter, Di Vinci Code and now Pokemon because of occultish undertones and bases and stuff.
Personally as a Lover of all things fantasy i can see that it seems stupid. YOu can discern fun from reality, and role playing with cards and pictures and wanting to beat someone in a game using your imagination surely isnt bad. Perhaps playing at an impressionable age when you aren't so solid about what you know about your faith and you let fantasy become reality and start applying the physics and forces that make Pokemon into you're own life- this can be harmful.
But when you know what you know, but love fantasy and you know the physics of fantasy but nkow it is a game- Knowing Dan Brown's book is in the fiction section of the library for a reason, and are aware of your doctrine and jsut want to enjoy the adventure and literary prowess of J.K Rowling- are you still be influenced, is it still dangerous? Does it lead to sin?
Another example of this could be Biology and evolution, which is also mentioned in said site. Evolution from a single celled organism is a widely accepted theory and people always use it as ammo against christianity. A lot of Christians shy away from mention of the theory becuase- like most things that poke fun at us- stuff that is used like ammo always makes us angry and makes us write angry angry blogs like this. We can't help it- we're passionate i suppose you could say.
But shying away from opposision and denying it doesnt really get us anyway, or the opposision anywhere. Avoiding things because they are bad- thats good. But sometimes we still need to be open minded- not fully accepting of the world and all its political correctness (accepting the world wholy is Baaad- because the world is wholy against God) but to understand their point of view, to learn about it, to question what you believe by challenging it, and not jsut accepting it, asking questions, knowing what you believe and why you do so you can defend yourself against the opposition with a legitmate answer that will make them ask their own questions.
So im rather looking forward to taking bio next year.
But there is also the fact that what this site has to say about abstaining from these sorts of things is that it is based in the best interest of Christian living. It has a point, even though maybe in reality it seems far-fetched. could it be that i am objecting to this "close-minded" view because i am so attatched to my fantasy? In all honesty i cannot think about my life without Fantasy because takes up so much of my imaginaton and art book.
Am ionly thinking it as "close-minded" because i deny the possible subtle influence of fantasy? thats an intersting thought.
No- think that if you are secure in waht you know- you are safe. There are points in fantasy where you should not cross, where the influence is too strong. I shuld always constantly review what i am sdoing, checking to make sure that it is not a foothold for the devil. But i don't think fantasy itself, is teh devil.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Now i am contemplating matters on this Cling and Clatter
I lOve Lifehouse too :D
http://image.listen.com/img/356x237/1/1/7/6/696711_356x237.jpg
Im sitten here, its 8:13 and ive missed my morning train- BUT THATS OK- because i dont have ti be at school for another hour. 9:44 is my train- Wooo :D
I actually woke up at 5:50 today to have ashower because its orchestra day, and iwas ready and everyithing and falling asleep on the coach infront of 10 news because there wasnt any cartoons on- and i thought; I dont want to go to orchestra today because im KNACKERED. And i go ALLLL the time, because ilike it,. but yesterday, because my violin teacher was sick, Innuendo took me to where all the big church people play touch-footy on fridays, and we just walked around the oval, i desplayed my awesome Kung-pow skills and "PALM-STRIKE!" and played tip.
So i had another hours sleep, and am getting ready to continue my drawing of Xeris Icetail the Lizard man, becuase he is part of the RP too- its going pretty well i reckon, but i think i should do my quiet time first.
Its pretty hard to do them, especuially when you were as kneckered as me- i started thinking about Drags and lizard men in a half daze instead of mumble. Woops- sorry GOd. so i had a sleep.
"I Love you, O Lord, my strength."
"I said to the Lord- Apart from you, i have no good thing."
PSALMS
I thought that was rather appropriate- thats why i like psalms. If you take teh time adn concentration you can see the pure emotion and devotion pslamist have for God- none of this boring snoring wishy washy blah stuff.
Now what sort of stuff is that?
What i meant to say, was, that Psalmist were very devoted to God- he was their life, and they spent their time praiseing him, becuase that was what they wanted to do.
I don't really appreciate it when people say they are christian, or another other religion/faith infact, but then they only think of it as PART of their identity- just something they do on the side. Just something that makes you a little bit more interesting or something. But i have to admit i do that too actually, a lot.
Thats not the point of faith is it? I dont think so. The more i think about it, all religions, to be of true faith, require 24 hour thought and time and effort. People lose their life for their faith- they follow it every day because when you're serious about your faith, you realise that your s[iritual self is far more important that the physical ones, and live in the light of that.
Real faith requires a full life change doesnt it?
But when people are "hard-core-Christians" or "Hard-core-Bhuddists", i think thats the only time someone is a REAL Christian or REAL bhuddist or Toaist or Catholic or Muslim. "Hard-core" refers to the life change, the constant effort and thought and living in the light of the spiritual instead of physical.
No one can be a chrisitan if they're watered down- if they';re only one on sundays, or if they don't really care to think or figure out what they really believe in. Thats when faith just becomes PART of your identity. Its wishy washy and not real.
I can't remember what they were looking at- maybe the two crucifix's i wear- one from my parentals and one from Shrub <3 They looked at it with interest- and sheepishly i sid: Yea, i guess im a bit radical.
When people think of Radical faith, they think of muslim extremists bombing things. I dont know anything about the muslim doctrine so i wont comment, but if you think of a Radical Christian, maybe you think of those Southern Americans in overals and a rifle, or sometimes, like they have on English crime sometimes, scary religious murderings and stuff in the name of God- oh yea and the Crusades.
But all those things came from reading tghe bible out of context, and it totally clashes with the christian doctrine- so that sort of RADICAL is more like a cult or sorts. A perversion of the Biblical truth.
When i said Radical, imeant "hard-core" for a better euphanism. I want to at least TRY and live my faith 24/7 (i say try because at the moment i am sucking at it, but at least im still trying) because i want tolive in the light of Heaven, to be a whitness and fulfil my purpose...generally i want to do what christians are meant to do Properly and with the right attitude.
but today, to be radical in any sense of teh word is waoaw- so not cool. In most places. People get scared when i "speak God-talk" , and to be honest its scary for me too, cos i dont want to scare anyone. Its cooler to be watered down. But then, thats not real.
If you have a faith- follow it with your whole heart- because it will matter in the end. Dont be watered down!
http://image.listen.com/img/356x237/1/1/7/6/696711_356x237.jpg
Im sitten here, its 8:13 and ive missed my morning train- BUT THATS OK- because i dont have ti be at school for another hour. 9:44 is my train- Wooo :D
I actually woke up at 5:50 today to have ashower because its orchestra day, and iwas ready and everyithing and falling asleep on the coach infront of 10 news because there wasnt any cartoons on- and i thought; I dont want to go to orchestra today because im KNACKERED. And i go ALLLL the time, because ilike it,. but yesterday, because my violin teacher was sick, Innuendo took me to where all the big church people play touch-footy on fridays, and we just walked around the oval, i desplayed my awesome Kung-pow skills and "PALM-STRIKE!" and played tip.
So i had another hours sleep, and am getting ready to continue my drawing of Xeris Icetail the Lizard man, becuase he is part of the RP too- its going pretty well i reckon, but i think i should do my quiet time first.
Its pretty hard to do them, especuially when you were as kneckered as me- i started thinking about Drags and lizard men in a half daze instead of mumble. Woops- sorry GOd. so i had a sleep.
"I Love you, O Lord, my strength."
"I said to the Lord- Apart from you, i have no good thing."
PSALMS
I thought that was rather appropriate- thats why i like psalms. If you take teh time adn concentration you can see the pure emotion and devotion pslamist have for God- none of this boring snoring wishy washy blah stuff.
Now what sort of stuff is that?
What i meant to say, was, that Psalmist were very devoted to God- he was their life, and they spent their time praiseing him, becuase that was what they wanted to do.
I don't really appreciate it when people say they are christian, or another other religion/faith infact, but then they only think of it as PART of their identity- just something they do on the side. Just something that makes you a little bit more interesting or something. But i have to admit i do that too actually, a lot.
Thats not the point of faith is it? I dont think so. The more i think about it, all religions, to be of true faith, require 24 hour thought and time and effort. People lose their life for their faith- they follow it every day because when you're serious about your faith, you realise that your s[iritual self is far more important that the physical ones, and live in the light of that.
Real faith requires a full life change doesnt it?
But when people are "hard-core-Christians" or "Hard-core-Bhuddists", i think thats the only time someone is a REAL Christian or REAL bhuddist or Toaist or Catholic or Muslim. "Hard-core" refers to the life change, the constant effort and thought and living in the light of the spiritual instead of physical.
No one can be a chrisitan if they're watered down- if they';re only one on sundays, or if they don't really care to think or figure out what they really believe in. Thats when faith just becomes PART of your identity. Its wishy washy and not real.
I can't remember what they were looking at- maybe the two crucifix's i wear- one from my parentals and one from Shrub <3 They looked at it with interest- and sheepishly i sid: Yea, i guess im a bit radical.
When people think of Radical faith, they think of muslim extremists bombing things. I dont know anything about the muslim doctrine so i wont comment, but if you think of a Radical Christian, maybe you think of those Southern Americans in overals and a rifle, or sometimes, like they have on English crime sometimes, scary religious murderings and stuff in the name of God- oh yea and the Crusades.
But all those things came from reading tghe bible out of context, and it totally clashes with the christian doctrine- so that sort of RADICAL is more like a cult or sorts. A perversion of the Biblical truth.
When i said Radical, imeant "hard-core" for a better euphanism. I want to at least TRY and live my faith 24/7 (i say try because at the moment i am sucking at it, but at least im still trying) because i want tolive in the light of Heaven, to be a whitness and fulfil my purpose...generally i want to do what christians are meant to do Properly and with the right attitude.
but today, to be radical in any sense of teh word is waoaw- so not cool. In most places. People get scared when i "speak God-talk" , and to be honest its scary for me too, cos i dont want to scare anyone. Its cooler to be watered down. But then, thats not real.
If you have a faith- follow it with your whole heart- because it will matter in the end. Dont be watered down!
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
This obsession is my call, holding Body Mind and Soul
Oh i do dearly love Starfield
http://www.cmcmusic.ca/images/featured_artist/starfield.jpg
Though they are butt ugly- they make nice music (even though people say they are plaegerised songs...lets just say that the people they were 'inspired' by play V. well.)
I should be studying geography for the school certificate, but bollucks to Human rights and Urban sprawl, i dont feel like it.
Im rather inspired to turn this into a nice D&M Blog- beause thats what everyone does now days.
Lots and lots of feelings.
And i have lots of D&M things to say occassionally- i have a diary at home that i self-blog in, but this can be bliugs intended for public viewing, a changing of attitudes and a persuasion of ideas. Oh ho ho.
What can i say? Humm...
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ACTING THE NOOB
It is hard to act the noob- especailly when you have pride like mine. No- i don't mean churchy noob, as in the assembly-organisers who have been called the N00bs, but i mean, acting like the newboie- the person who doesn't know anything.
And i dont really mean to say 'act'. I mean being the Noob- no one wants to be the noob because everyone hates the noobs.
Why do people hate noobs?
Its because everyone wants to be experienced, we all want o be experts.
Like in fantasy- the most admired are the God-mod charcters, the people who can do everything perfectly- or perhaps just one thing very very well. Like legolas. He looks good, he can shoot arrows, he's elven, he has blonde hair- the Works! he's probably be shooting those arrows for a long time, and is very experienced, he knows what his doing. Same with Aragon. Very cool, because they are experts in their field.
Everyone wants to be like Legolas and Aragon, or the hunter chick in the Brothers Grim (that was a weird movie, especailly when the french dude kicks the kitten into the big machine of death).
Why do we want to be experts?
Because we want to show off- its cool to be awatched and admired. We all like it, being superior, to be able to tell others what to do, not because you are bossy, but because you are respected because yo have had more knowledge than everyone else. Its not nescesarily a bad thing- just the way humans are.
But when you are in a situation where you are a complete n00b- you can't be an expert, cos you're not! You can't pretend to know something htat you don't, to join a conversation where you know whats going on or what they're saying, you can't pretend to execute something well physically if yoouve never learnt the techiniques or practices.
All experts have to start noobs. But thats not the point.
My point is the embracing of Noob-ship, to acknowledge that- NO, you're not an expert here.
That is something very hard to do, especailly when yoou have an ego like mine. and a love for fantasy like me to :D
These thoughts came from Grade sport- Tai Kwon Do. Oh it is fun. this is the perfect anti-noob senario, because tai kwon do and matial arts are also very fantasy ish.
I have never done any martial arts training. My sisters have, but i missed the boat, due to be trapped in a mother's stomach. Never done it, though, like every fantasy lover, and a general interest in my own asian culture, i have thought about practising it, but i never got around to organising anything.
So when it came to tai kwon do, i was a natural noob. Can't stretch properly, my techinique is very noobular, just general noobness.
I suppose there was something in me, the something inside most of us teenagers, especailly the fanatsy ones, where there is that atmosphere that you are the protagonist of the epic saga of your life- and like in all books and movies, the protagnost finds something inherent in them that makes them incredibly uniquely special. THis is part of chracter development and everything wher ein the end of hte movie the character can successfuly make the atnagonist eat dust, totally show off and be awed by all those who dared to deny that they were special.
Good examples are Neo, Eragon, Harry Potter, Frodo, the guy from pricilla Queen of the desert, and MORE! Oh yea and Napolian Dynamite :D
Along with this, we all have this desire to be tough, to be fighters, because the mentioned protagonists above where such- they could fight, and they could deal out pain to those who dared oppose them. They were not to be messed with- they were HEROS. Yea.
So, with these two things in mind, let us step back into the dingy recesses of teh dark and desolate Hornsby Girls Gym, and listen to those roars of exertion as punches stab the air , dark and menacing eyes glittering with an imagination of toughness, of power and fiercness to those who in the past totally embarrased them in their own social awekwardness- those characters now stand in awe of your prowess, amazing that they ever thought you were just a weak and quiet asian. <- ... its a hypothetical scenario, i assure you :sweat:
But no- try as i might, i was still a noob, and the 'spirit of the tiger' was incased in an incompetant shell of inexperience. Now i could fight it, keep roaring and pretended i knew what i was doing. To show off, to be cool like Aragon and totally know exactly what the hobbits where doing when those riders came and killed the orcs that had them captive.
But no- i knew, all i would have smelt was yukky fake movie grass. No- it was not my place to pretend i was an expert.
I knew of the way i looked upon the noobs who thought they were anti-noobs, or hid their noobness with an antinoob air. It only made me more antinoob toward them, and they only looked more desperate, fake, and it was a chracterisitic in their personality, that constant persuite of attention through anti-noobeness, that i could not help find as an undesireable quality.
So i came to terms with myself. I would never accumulate true Anti-noob status unless i stole the memories and times and physice of those experts around me, the likes of kate, suchu and shrub and sam.
I said to Ta-ego: NO, i will not let you take over me.
And so, like a big block of cement learning to bend down and touch its non-exsistant toes, i let myself admire the precision of Suchu's kicks and the snap of the paddles when she did, and Shrubbus's board breaking Prowess. And i admired it with the quiet satisfaction that i didnt have to be competative here, i could just have fun trying to do tai kwon do. it was a nice feeling. Now thats a bit of character development for you.
So, readers, when it comes to you being a noob, embrace it, in a humble way- humbleness feels good to me, especially because its something that i know i needed to be working toward, but ms Ego got in the way. This was a good start, i feel.
http://www.cmcmusic.ca/images/featured_artist/starfield.jpg
Though they are butt ugly- they make nice music (even though people say they are plaegerised songs...lets just say that the people they were 'inspired' by play V. well.)
I should be studying geography for the school certificate, but bollucks to Human rights and Urban sprawl, i dont feel like it.
Im rather inspired to turn this into a nice D&M Blog- beause thats what everyone does now days.
Lots and lots of feelings.
And i have lots of D&M things to say occassionally- i have a diary at home that i self-blog in, but this can be bliugs intended for public viewing, a changing of attitudes and a persuasion of ideas. Oh ho ho.
What can i say? Humm...
____________________________________________________________________
ACTING THE NOOB
It is hard to act the noob- especailly when you have pride like mine. No- i don't mean churchy noob, as in the assembly-organisers who have been called the N00bs, but i mean, acting like the newboie- the person who doesn't know anything.
And i dont really mean to say 'act'. I mean being the Noob- no one wants to be the noob because everyone hates the noobs.
Why do people hate noobs?
Its because everyone wants to be experienced, we all want o be experts.
Like in fantasy- the most admired are the God-mod charcters, the people who can do everything perfectly- or perhaps just one thing very very well. Like legolas. He looks good, he can shoot arrows, he's elven, he has blonde hair- the Works! he's probably be shooting those arrows for a long time, and is very experienced, he knows what his doing. Same with Aragon. Very cool, because they are experts in their field.
Everyone wants to be like Legolas and Aragon, or the hunter chick in the Brothers Grim (that was a weird movie, especailly when the french dude kicks the kitten into the big machine of death).
Why do we want to be experts?
Because we want to show off- its cool to be awatched and admired. We all like it, being superior, to be able to tell others what to do, not because you are bossy, but because you are respected because yo have had more knowledge than everyone else. Its not nescesarily a bad thing- just the way humans are.
But when you are in a situation where you are a complete n00b- you can't be an expert, cos you're not! You can't pretend to know something htat you don't, to join a conversation where you know whats going on or what they're saying, you can't pretend to execute something well physically if yoouve never learnt the techiniques or practices.
All experts have to start noobs. But thats not the point.
My point is the embracing of Noob-ship, to acknowledge that- NO, you're not an expert here.
That is something very hard to do, especailly when yoou have an ego like mine. and a love for fantasy like me to :D
These thoughts came from Grade sport- Tai Kwon Do. Oh it is fun. this is the perfect anti-noob senario, because tai kwon do and matial arts are also very fantasy ish.
I have never done any martial arts training. My sisters have, but i missed the boat, due to be trapped in a mother's stomach. Never done it, though, like every fantasy lover, and a general interest in my own asian culture, i have thought about practising it, but i never got around to organising anything.
So when it came to tai kwon do, i was a natural noob. Can't stretch properly, my techinique is very noobular, just general noobness.
I suppose there was something in me, the something inside most of us teenagers, especailly the fanatsy ones, where there is that atmosphere that you are the protagonist of the epic saga of your life- and like in all books and movies, the protagnost finds something inherent in them that makes them incredibly uniquely special. THis is part of chracter development and everything wher ein the end of hte movie the character can successfuly make the atnagonist eat dust, totally show off and be awed by all those who dared to deny that they were special.
Good examples are Neo, Eragon, Harry Potter, Frodo, the guy from pricilla Queen of the desert, and MORE! Oh yea and Napolian Dynamite :D
Along with this, we all have this desire to be tough, to be fighters, because the mentioned protagonists above where such- they could fight, and they could deal out pain to those who dared oppose them. They were not to be messed with- they were HEROS. Yea.
So, with these two things in mind, let us step back into the dingy recesses of teh dark and desolate Hornsby Girls Gym, and listen to those roars of exertion as punches stab the air , dark and menacing eyes glittering with an imagination of toughness, of power and fiercness to those who in the past totally embarrased them in their own social awekwardness- those characters now stand in awe of your prowess, amazing that they ever thought you were just a weak and quiet asian. <- ... its a hypothetical scenario, i assure you :sweat:
But no- try as i might, i was still a noob, and the 'spirit of the tiger' was incased in an incompetant shell of inexperience. Now i could fight it, keep roaring and pretended i knew what i was doing. To show off, to be cool like Aragon and totally know exactly what the hobbits where doing when those riders came and killed the orcs that had them captive.
But no- i knew, all i would have smelt was yukky fake movie grass. No- it was not my place to pretend i was an expert.
I knew of the way i looked upon the noobs who thought they were anti-noobs, or hid their noobness with an antinoob air. It only made me more antinoob toward them, and they only looked more desperate, fake, and it was a chracterisitic in their personality, that constant persuite of attention through anti-noobeness, that i could not help find as an undesireable quality.
So i came to terms with myself. I would never accumulate true Anti-noob status unless i stole the memories and times and physice of those experts around me, the likes of kate, suchu and shrub and sam.
I said to Ta-ego: NO, i will not let you take over me.
And so, like a big block of cement learning to bend down and touch its non-exsistant toes, i let myself admire the precision of Suchu's kicks and the snap of the paddles when she did, and Shrubbus's board breaking Prowess. And i admired it with the quiet satisfaction that i didnt have to be competative here, i could just have fun trying to do tai kwon do. it was a nice feeling. Now thats a bit of character development for you.
So, readers, when it comes to you being a noob, embrace it, in a humble way- humbleness feels good to me, especially because its something that i know i needed to be working toward, but ms Ego got in the way. This was a good start, i feel.
Monday, November 06, 2006
Just sittn' here, chuckin' a shrub...havin' a bud...true
YES i am chucking a shrub- IM POSTING ON BLOGSPOT! what-the?
I shuld be finishing articulating my Exo talk. its on God and STUDY and its fully hard man. its such a broad topic. Its just like me, saying im going to do a talk...on Jesus.
See what i mean? But no- i ate too muc rummy roast pork and double-creme potato bake, so im too phat to be Deep and meaningful at the moment.
oh and occationally im pressing my finger into a bag of Heinz Baby peas; extra sweet and juicy, because i burnt my finger on the potato gems tray.
its so odd having no homework. i end up sitting at my compyall day drawing, and then i feel all crazy-im meant to be doing something productive, but i really cant be bothered, even though i really dont want to do this anymore. Yes, sometimes even drawing looses its lustre. I need homework to apprciate the things i love i suppose.
hey i feel so important- i got to write a message for teh day sheet for Exo to put in tomorrow.
hayles added Yo-yo-yo, EXO (or X, O) ma bro, at the top, so all yall people who have people reading out the daysheet can sound uber cool :D Im just imagining Ms Gamble doing it :D Oh ho ho ho .
Ms innuendo revealed to me that psycologists are for those who have a secret yearning to hurt small animals and babies. She was here studying it a while ago. yes, you are fully qualified as a psycologist if yo have these inner yearnings- you get to scare a baby every time it holds a rat by banging a peice of metal really hard behind its head, and feed heroin to rats, cut out parts of a cat's brain which makes them still while they sleep, so when they dream all their limbs start waving around, and have teh scientific liscence to steal candy from a baby.
Now thats waht i call a highly payed and elite proffession for you.
I shuld be finishing articulating my Exo talk. its on God and STUDY and its fully hard man. its such a broad topic. Its just like me, saying im going to do a talk...on Jesus.
See what i mean? But no- i ate too muc rummy roast pork and double-creme potato bake, so im too phat to be Deep and meaningful at the moment.
oh and occationally im pressing my finger into a bag of Heinz Baby peas; extra sweet and juicy, because i burnt my finger on the potato gems tray.
its so odd having no homework. i end up sitting at my compyall day drawing, and then i feel all crazy-im meant to be doing something productive, but i really cant be bothered, even though i really dont want to do this anymore. Yes, sometimes even drawing looses its lustre. I need homework to apprciate the things i love i suppose.
hey i feel so important- i got to write a message for teh day sheet for Exo to put in tomorrow.
hayles added Yo-yo-yo, EXO (or X, O) ma bro, at the top, so all yall people who have people reading out the daysheet can sound uber cool :D Im just imagining Ms Gamble doing it :D Oh ho ho ho .
Ms innuendo revealed to me that psycologists are for those who have a secret yearning to hurt small animals and babies. She was here studying it a while ago. yes, you are fully qualified as a psycologist if yo have these inner yearnings- you get to scare a baby every time it holds a rat by banging a peice of metal really hard behind its head, and feed heroin to rats, cut out parts of a cat's brain which makes them still while they sleep, so when they dream all their limbs start waving around, and have teh scientific liscence to steal candy from a baby.
Now thats waht i call a highly payed and elite proffession for you.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
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